I always try to blend in at work, and i do not need the bus to recognize myself and others or single myself and others out for any reason.
I am genuinely shy plus I have a difficult time talking in front of a group of people, and when the boss has meetings, I usually kneel near the back so I cannot be recognized.
The boss had a meeting a few weeks ago plus only invited the department heads. I had to go to the meeting plus it was a small group of people, and my boss started a conversation with myself and others as soon as the meeting began plus I started to suppose genuinely upset plus flushed. I knew that meant that I was likely going to have a panic attack. I told my boss that I needed a couple of hours plus I excused myself from the room. I did not suppose what I was going to say when I went back there. I was hoping they all moved on to a odd subject. When I came back to the room, my boss asked if I was feeling better… She told myself and others that she wanted myself and others to present all of my weekly facts plus numbers after the meeting. The boss never asked myself and others to do that before plus I thought I was going to faint. I went outside plus 1 of the gentlemen from the warehouse was smoking a joint. I practically flagged the woman down to get him to provide myself and others some of the marijuana joint. I did not suppose if it was going to help, however I did not recognize it would hurt. The marijuana joint entirely made myself and others suppose much more calm plus relaxed.